Good My Ohness!!!

I received a call while I was at work today, from a friend of the family who is a lawyer. Amy and I asked if he could help us put together a will, since we now have a child.

I hadn't really put much thought into it until he called, but as I was talking with him, the reality of it all hit me pretty hard.

I never thought I was going to live forever, I just never thought about my end. I realize that every day is a gift from God, but what if I am being too presumptuous that God will continue to gift me life with my family until Amy and I are old?

This whole mortality thing is kind of sobering.

To make things worse, I was looking at some pictures of my very adorable daughter as I spoke with the lawyer. I could feel the twisting and swelling of my stomach as we talked.

I look forward to the day when I graduate from here, but I also really want to watch my daughter grow up.

Yoda, the little green Jedi, told Anakin Skywalker that he needed to let go of what he feared to lose. I find that idea profound. Not that I am afraid that fear of losing my daughter (or not seeing her grow up) will lead me to the "dark side", but more that I am afraid that I have found myself putting my faith in something that is not God.

We should love our kids and spouses. We should love our neighbors as we love ourselves. But above that, we should love our God with all of our hearts, souls, and minds.

I now go to correct my heart. While my family is the greatest gift I have ever received, I should put my faith in the gift-giver and not the gift.