Good My Ohness!!!

I received a call while I was at work today, from a friend of the family who is a lawyer. Amy and I asked if he could help us put together a will, since we now have a child.

I hadn't really put much thought into it until he called, but as I was talking with him, the reality of it all hit me pretty hard.

I never thought I was going to live forever, I just never thought about my end. I realize that every day is a gift from God, but what if I am being too presumptuous that God will continue to gift me life with my family until Amy and I are old?

This whole mortality thing is kind of sobering.

To make things worse, I was looking at some pictures of my very adorable daughter as I spoke with the lawyer. I could feel the twisting and swelling of my stomach as we talked.

I look forward to the day when I graduate from here, but I also really want to watch my daughter grow up.

Yoda, the little green Jedi, told Anakin Skywalker that he needed to let go of what he feared to lose. I find that idea profound. Not that I am afraid that fear of losing my daughter (or not seeing her grow up) will lead me to the "dark side", but more that I am afraid that I have found myself putting my faith in something that is not God.

We should love our kids and spouses. We should love our neighbors as we love ourselves. But above that, we should love our God with all of our hearts, souls, and minds.

I now go to correct my heart. While my family is the greatest gift I have ever received, I should put my faith in the gift-giver and not the gift.

My wife, who always posts about interesting things, is playing a game about what your band's debut alblum should be. I must play.

So here it is!

You're Bayh-Clinton!


As Evan Bayh, you seem like a wolf in sheep's clothing, or at least a strawberry dressed
up as a blueberry. You are, after all, quite a smoothie. You enjoy sitting on fences, not being
too close or far from the screen in movie theaters, driving in the middle lane of highways, and
playing as a center in basketball. When you introduce yourself, people think you're making a
sales pitch.

You select Hillary Clinton as your running mate to bring a winning name back to a
Democratic ticket.


Take the 2008 Presidential Ticket Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Cuz really, the one person who reads this might care a little. So here you go Amy.

You're Catch-22!

by Joseph Heller

Incredibly witty and funny, you have a taste for irony in all that you
see. It seems that life has put you in perpetually untenable situations, and your sense
of humor is all that gets you through them. These experiences have also made you an
ardent pacifist, though you present your message with tongue sewn into cheek. You
could coin a phrase that replaces the word "paradox" for millions of
people.


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

But if I did, I'm sure I would get this site.

I post it here because I really don't know where else to put it.

Well, yesterday we found our what our baby was going to be. We went to the ultrasound shop and they took a peek at our kid.

I wasn't really nervous until about five minutes before I needed to leave work to meet Amy. Then all the horror of not being in control crept up on me. There are all sorts of wants that I have, children, long life with my family, health, Starbucks, but they are not necessarily what God has planned. Which is too bad really, because I think its a pretty good plan.

So anyway, its horrible not being in control. Its bad enough when I let Amy drive. Not that she is a bad driver, but when she drives and we come upon a red light I find myself slamming my right foot down on the ground where the break pedal should be. I guess I have some kind of control problem.

Anyway, the good news is that so far, our baby is healthy. The two-vessel chord that scared us so much last pregnancy is a three vessel chord this time. So we set a new high score on the vessel chord. Maybe next time we can top even that and go for a four or five vessel chord.

Whatever God has in store for Amy and I, we will have to continue to trust that God knows best.

So, I haven't posted in forever, almost a full year. Maybe I will start bloggin again, maybe not. Anyway, I just wrapped my wife's Valentine's day present because we are celebrating it tonight. I am going to be out of town for the next week on business. So anyway, here is the wrapping job...




So is that the most inappropriate valentine's day wrapping paper or what!? Who sells that, seriously!?

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!

I am so smart, S M R T.

But perhaps no so evil? *puts pinky in mouth sideways and raises eyebrows*

You Are 32% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How is a husband supposed to prepare oneself for fatherhood. I'm still getting used to being called a husband, but now a father?

I'm very excited about my new son/daughter, we heard the heartbeat so I know that Amy isn't faking it now.

According to the books Amy is reading, it should look something like this right now.

I know I don't post very often RM (If that is your real name!), but hey, I don't have a lot to say.

I saw that my wife has a recipe on her blog, so I wanted to share a recipe that has been passed down in my family since... ... well, me. But I do plan on passing it on to whatever offspring I spawn.

Here it goes.

1.) Preheat oven to 425.
2.) Get a glass. (Preferrably clean)
3.) Turn on faucet. Let run for 10-20 seconds.
4.) If you want colder water, place ice cubes from the freezer into the glass. (Ice cubes are covered in a differant recipe)
5.) Fill Glass with water from faucet.
6.) Turn off oven.

There you go. A time honored recipe for a fine glass of cool, refreshing water. I know I'm not a Martha Stewart, but maybe a Martin Stewart.

What the heck! I want my november back!

I once saw something on the history channel or something that talked about how, through out history, coffee houses were a place of free thinking and public debate due to the caffiene that stimulates your brain. With this information, I will blame this post on the peppermint mocha.

My company has sent me to New Jersey for training for a few days and so I am stuck here alone, after class, sippin' coffee, thinking about the world. Hmmm.

I was thinking about the war in Iraq, and terrorists, and all that crap. How most Americans conveniently sit on their assumed correct side in regards to the war on terror.

Let me preface, I think terrorists are completely wrong to want to hurt innocent people just to scare others. In all my searching and conversing with The Almighty, never has he communicated to me that he is about hurting others. In fact, he is about the opposite, loving others as Christ loved you.

But here are some things that come to mind that are very unpopular to vocalize. For example, terrorists are people too. They have families and loved ones. I don't think that they are just pure evil, but misguided, angry people who want to fight for one reason or another. Ok, maybe some of them are pure evil, but I really don't think I am qualified to judge that since I am not perfect either.

I don't think America is innocent when looking at its relationship with the Middle East. America has and probably will always be out for it's own interests. Maybe some of the middle eastern people feel oppressed by us, and maybe rightfully so. I really don't know.

When we started cutting off Japan from oil before WWII, they eventually declared war on us. (I know that isn't the only reason they declared war, but it is a factor.) But unlike the Middle East, Japan actually had the capability to make war on the US. If some nation in the Middle East declared war after the Twin Towers attack and claimed responsibility, I have no doubt in my mind that the offending nation would be a dust cloud today.

I am just pondering the things that are unpatriotic to think about. In a way, it is not unlike politics. Is there a right side? Two or more groups of people grab onto different points of view that are valid and healthy in their own right. But then, in a quest for correctness and power, they focus on the faults of their opponents, ignoring the valid points of their opponents as well as their own faults.

I think about this and hurt inside. I want to fight back, but I know fighting is wrong. I think we did the world a service removing Sadaam, but the brunt of the cost was paid by the Iraqi people.

I can understand why someone who doesn't believe in God could not believe in absolute truth. Without God, is there such a thing?

The war in Iraq?

We removed Sadaam, that was good.
Lots of innocent people died, that was bad.
We are building hospitals and schools and helping establish government, this is good.
We blew up hospitals and schools to destroy their governemnt, was this bad?
No one wants outsiders to come into their neighborhood and boss them around, that is bad.

It goes on. It seems for every positive, you can find a negative. When you look at everything, right and wrong go out the window and the war in Iraq becomes just an event that happened (is happening).

But this is the way the world has been as long as history has been recorded.

Man vs man, brutalizing each other emotionally and physically, trying to kick each other in the mommy-daddy button.

No more coffee for me thanks, I've had enough.

I don't know what I want to write about. Not much on my mind right now, except that I don't want to pack, clean, move, etc.

Why do I dread something so simple, so much? If you compare cleaning one's house to the stresses of work or the mounds of homework I had when I was in school, you would think I would be all over the cleaning.

Yet, no. I would rather work an 18 hour day at work rather than clean my office for one hour.

It makes no sense. I must assume, therefore, that my brain is broken.

There you go, I wrote something.

Oh Marie, you know how to take care of me!

Seriously people, I have been livin off of food like this at work for a few weeks now. I am normally not a fan of frozen dinners, but these are actually decent! Good food that I am pretty sure is NOT good for me. I'm not sure if it's possible to be 100% in-organic, but that might be happening here. Ah yes, the bane of healthy eaters everywhere! And look at me, no adverse side effects whatsoever!

Have you ever had deja vu, and sworn that you had recently had it for that same situation? Weird.

I know I sit in my cubilce every day, but it is like I have been here before. Hmmm.

So I sat down tonight, wifeless, to watch Conan and caught the end of Leno. To my surprise, the muscial guest was Ben Folds. You don't know who he is? Just know that he rocks, and cusses a lot.

So he is playin his new song, rocking out, and then I recognize the guy rocking out behind him with the tamborine. It is Al Yankovic. Yup, Weird Al. Another bonus, the bass player was wearing a CCCP t-shirt. I haven't seen one of those in a long time.

So blast to the past for me, but not so much. I guess I am just realizing just how much I am a child of the 90's.

And if Ben Folds gets popular, I was a fan all along, so that makes me better somehow.